The Hypocrites
OK since you all so want me to be honest about everything and that i should tell the truth, well here it goes....
This is what ' J ' said about ' Y '
- " you know actually studying in SG is a fresh start for ' Y ' cause she's got really bad reputation back home. She got pregnant when she was 13 or 14 ?! "
- " I don't think she has any friends back home cause every time i go back i never see her going out with other friends and she keep calling me!"
- " I don't want to live with her cause she doesn't know how to take care of herself and i always have to lie to her mom that she's at home and what so ever but when i went back to Indo her mom looked for my mum and suggest that we should stay together and i have no choice but to follow! "
- " She treats her bf ' D ' like a dog always shout at him and scold him, of course he cant stand it anymore and dump her. "
- " You know when Eka broke up with the gf already ' Y ' start to flirt with him but he doesn't seem interested! "
- " you know the other day Juju came over and went into ' Y 's room and then she lock the door. I was so afraid that if her mom or bf found out then i have to lie for her again."
- " I don't think she's still a virgin, what do you think? "
- " She always lie to her mom. "
- " Her mom came and check everyone's cupboard and i feel so uncomfortable about it. "
- " If she did anything wrong her mom will send her back to Indo straight away! "
- " Nobody in Indo likes her! In school everyone calls her a slut! "
( There are so much more but in just too lazy to type it)
My message to ' J '
OK you said it is important for me to tell whats really on my mind and that i should tell the truth and should decide as soon as possible who i want to choose right! You keep telling me that telling the truth is very important and that i shouldn't hide anymore but what about yourself??
Look who's talking ?!
Why don't you tell ' Y ' straight to her face since telling the truth is so important? You know telling you my story doesn't mean that you have be in it !!! You think you're being helpful? NO YOU'RE NOT, you are what they call a busybody who tries to be a hero!! So what do you get by doing that? Any prize? Praises from God? The Third Party Award? Nothing ...
If being honest is so important to you then why don't you tell the truth when ' Y 's mum called and ask you bout her behaviour? Why don't you show your oh-my-so-call-aunt Magdalene that you smoke, and stop pretending to act like gosh-I'm-so-a-good-girl-type ? You think you're any how better then me? To be honest everyone's selfish when it comes to certain things in life.
My message to ' Y '
OK gurl, when both of you did what you did to me it was pretty OK cause i just knew you'll for like one year? What i do not understand is that both of you have been friends for like your whole life and your friend is talking shit behind you??? That's just sad! I pity you alot... You're just like me A VICTIM to the one we trust. I mean you siding her and talk shit about me to ' L ' is so uncool you know that? I mean all this while have i ever stepped on your tail? You act like all good girl in front of people but you're actually wild inside, you're a party girl type! You have all the bad rumours back home and here you are - to judge me and tell me what i did is wrong? what about you? Weren't you in love with two also that time? How the heck you think you're better than me with all those rumours? Feeling any better after what you two did to me? you said lying to 'L' and 'A' is wrong but didn't you two lie to you mums? She's your MOTHER for fuck sake. That's more serious than to who i did to.
" I'm sorry that I'm writting this, there's actually so much more i could write but whats the point? I'm over it long time ago. Hey, I'm just the kind of girl who laughs at her mistake so pardon me if i laugh in your face!
So gurls, instead of trying to change me, it is better to change yourself first!
And for your information, i never regret what i did cause i know what i was doing and and I'm actually very glad that i had 2 boys at one time cause it helps me to see who's the right one for me and time to figure out who they really are! I don't want to just choose like that and in the end ' oh my god i made the wrong choice, i should have chosen the other one' ! Fuck that i rather take my time and choose instead of regretting later. And you don't buy a car without test driving it. Its like choosing between a Ferrari and a Lambo, both you like and you could only choose one so to prevent buying the wrong one and regret it later you gotta test drive both for a couple of times to know which one you really want aight??!! Same thing goes to relationship! I maybe wrong but hey its my future and happiness we're talking bout here, so its not a sin to be selfish when it comes to that.
A message for ' L '
OK, you need to stop being like a baby and be a real man! Stop asking your friend to send emails to me when something goes wrong. And you think its a good idea to call people's parents and ask them to help? You know how childish you look like? You're like 20 and you still go around asking people what you should do when something goes wrong? Stop calling my friends and ask them this and that, you know how annoying you are to them and congratulation you just ruin you reputation!! Stop comparing yourself to Uzair cause he is far much better than you no questions ask, at least he doesn't go around doing all those shit!!! and who the fuck gives you the right to delete my contacts? You're such a baby and you don't even realise that. I'm not saying I'm all perfect I'm kinda messed up too but at least i know not to involve your partner's friend!!!!!! And whats up with you asking shits from me and if i don't give you act all pissed off? what if I'm the one who's like that i bet you'll run so fast its not even funny! Your own friend agreed on most of the things i said OK. Instead of telling people what i did wrong this and that why not look at yourself first? whats the actual reason that made me stop contacting you that often? Stop being controlling OK. Gosh, i wonder why all your relationships never last. And oh having a weenie size like Edison Chen's isnt big OK. And you got no skills! Period! And when ask about why you wanted me to be your wife and your best answer is ' cause i know we can be rich together! ' . I mean what the fuck everything is about money to you huh? You know what honestly yes you can be rich easily but the sad thing is you'll never be wealthy! That's a fact. I mean 10 years ago the salary they are giving you today is the same and back in the days the money value is higher but now is getting lower and lower and your field's salary isn't getting any much higher, and the salary they giving its like so predictable, you know that's true. Oh one more thing if you want a gurl stop being stingy!!!!!! OK, i might sound like a bitch now, which i know i am but what I'm saying is what most of your friends think. Think I'm bullshitting? Ask your best girl friend! She told me in msn before last time!
People if you wanna judge me, can, no problem but first make sure that you have no sins in front of God's eyes first ok ?!
Amen.
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